Thoughts in my head as I drove today.

Where am I going? Am I pleasing you Lord? I feel close to you, but far apart from some who have been so close at times. I want to make everyone happy, want to spend time with everyone. How come there are not enough hours in the day to do all of this, work, friends, relaxation? God, I mean everything in the most selfless way possible. I am also really afraid about this summer, how I am going to make money and all. I'm so young, but you know everything. Please be my peace, and help me to do what is right.

I am broken, but he is whole.

stream of consciousness- transportation related

I've been wanting to get travel in more interesting ways recently
I have to take advantage of this cold weather
I think there is about two inches of snow on the sidewalk
That means I can ski to class
I've always wanted to do that
but where would I put the skis once I got to class
oh well
ill figure it out
I skateboarded in the blizzard last night
Things are always more fun when they are done in a blizzard
once I played tag on horseback in a blizzard
that was fun
but not cleaning up horse poop in a blizzard
I hope things are cancelled today
then Elijah and I could go skiing downtown
I think that would be epic
more epic than biking downtown in a blizzard
because its easier to slip and fall in a blizzard on a bike
and maybe get run over by a car
but my new bike can't be ridden anyways, because its previous owner was too heavy
and sat on it
and squished the back wheel
so thats why I got it for so cheap
but its pretty
and much bigger than the last bike i tried to get from craigslist
my little sister has that one now
but i am done with work now
and should get to class
but being that i do not have any awesome device- ski, bike, or skateboard, ill take my feet.

writing to avoid painting

I have a lot on my mind, but little to write a lot about- ideas lay scattered about in my head, as I sit here in my spotless room, my painting spread out on the floor in the living room and a Matt Marsh at the dining room table, removed from the chaos at 189 in order to finish his essay.
I feel like I've finally reached a point in my life, where I feel confident enough in myself that I don't need to change for people to like me. This, in a way, has made me stronger in my faith, which is, I believe, a juvenile way to grow in my faith, but it is a step nonetheless- it is a way of growing up.

Music: Jose Gonzalez, Ratatat, American Analog Set, Big Blood, Iron and Wine (of course), and the Beatles.

Phrase of the week: We'll see
(last week's- It happens)

bit of fresh air.

Email searches are fun
the number of emails that matched these word searches:
43- bacon
32- longboarding
90- ice cream
320- God
90- sick
190- haha
8- kite
80- horse
817- photo
80- dead
110- tried
130- snow

It's also fun to go back and read old emails to friends- almost like a journal.

Great Quotes from this week:

Visual Anthro Class (during an hour discussion on the political incorrect-ness of the Aunt Jemima Pancake Label

Teacher: "People see the need for a motherly, or matron figure to represent a food. Tony the Tiger cannot cook pancakes"

--- later ---
"The political correctness of the deliciousness of the pancakes" -Student

In the Car:

Me: So if you had to choose between the older era My Little Ponies or the new ones, which one would you choose to date?
Carter: The newer ones of course- They're thinner, curvier, and sexier.

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Its so encouraging to see how God is working in the lives of my friends- how they are excited to serve him. It teaches me a lot.