lost.

there are a lot of times in my driving experiences that I come across an interesting predicament. i get lost, but then i enjoy getting lost, but getting lost makes me late for wherever i need to be. so i ask myself. should i stop the car, get out, and ask for directions. or should i enjoy wandering aimlessly, eventually getting to the place, but annoying other people and missing out in the process?

this is where i am right now in my life. and my main question is. what am i gonna do with the gray areas in my life? what does God want me to do?

i hope he gives me answers soon.

favourite things

*my bikes
*mustard yellow
*beirut
*hot apple cider
*paneras
*colored trees
*sidewalk chalk
*naps
*good photo shoots
*being content
*God's forgiveness
*being guilt-free
*skateboarding
*horses that neigh

life.

Racing
Kirsten and I have lots of competitions between ourselves, such as, who is more of a man, who is more daring, who is a faster skateboarder, etc. The most common of these competitions is running. We have a race about once a week. When I win it is usually because I end up cutting her off or cheating in some other way. But on friday night, we raced down a dirt road in the dark, which is a bad idea, and I was actually in the lead, when I tripped, fell on my head, and may have suffered a minor concussion (ie, i could not focus my vision and could not think quite well). Anyways, maybe it was divine providence that allowed kirsten to continue her winning streak.

goats
goats have made their way into our conversation more frequently lately as seen in the lines below:

(said in a thick indian accent) "we have a blue goat outside waiting for you.. his name... (looks to the stove)... is... uh.. butter flavor" -eric


eric: if you could have a goat do anything, what would it do?
me: fly of course!
kirsten: tap dance!

Pizza

if you tell a boy to go out into the street and eat pizza that has been run over by twenty cars, he will do it. just ask matt, jon, or brendan.

baby

i may or may not have this awesome child sized road bike named baby. it is sortof difficult to ride, but makes for good adventures.

Balance

it's been a while.
and this is due to the massive amounts of work that i have recently. last friday was a near nightmare with a large project being turned in within minutes of the deadline, this week has included many near-sleepless nights due to a presentation being due, and on top of that i am still working on work for myself: at least two multimedia presentations will be shot this month, just for my own practice and portfolio.
I've been struggling a lot with balancing everything out. It always seems that when i have fun, it all comes at once, a carefree existence for a day or a few hours- and then work day after day with no sunlight. I've been working on mixing the two, and I think it is slowly beginning to work. I always make sure that when I am photographing for an assignment, that it stays fun, so I won't ever start to dislike my art. Harder to do then it sounds, but I've been having some really fun shoots recently.

Last Saturday, Kirsten, Michael, Moses, and myself went to Syracuse to the state fairgrounds to do some shooting. Not only was the light beautiful when we were shooting (six o clock light), but we had so much fun exploring and shooting.

And then yesterday Kirsten ended our shooting expedition yesterday with a half an hour in our favorite tree.

I've been stressed alot recently, but have found when this is the case, I end up having so much fun when fun actually happens.

nowhere.

ive had this blog for about a month more than jill, but she already has three times as many posts as i do.

in quite a short time (about a week), I've figured out a lot about a lot- priorities, relationships, friends, time management myself, how to make an omelet, etc. It's been an up and down week, but I've come out realizing what I have yet to learn and what I have learned. I'm still trying to figure out where I am with God, but i know that will come as long as I am seeking him.

I've been given a lot of grace this week, from God and from my friends, and in return, I have done the same.

I have no clue what I will do or where I will go next in my life, but I am happy to see what will happen.

nine days later

another entry.
more adventures.
even more homework to finish.
new people met.
the same tree climbed again (this time with a picnic)
2nd favorite pair of jeans torn.
bike crashed, broken, then fixed (with stolen parts from another bike. not my doing.)
another thousand pictures taken.
first reporter magazine assignment.
wednesday adventure and a chocolate malt.
yellow paint (consequently, my temporary favorite color), on the back bumper of my car.
red paint (my favorite color), now on some nice yellow fire hydrant in pennfield.
henna-d hands and feet (flowers on my hands and a tree with a tire swing on my foot)
favorite spot on campus visited twice- with new folks to enjoy it.
spinning in the rain at midnight.
yerba mate every day, as always. not missed one yet.
painting parties every sunday.
american analog set- 6.99 cd at the record store downtown.
the color blue-gray.
constant talk of living in maine.
girl talking.
living.

Wednesday, September 10 was a small but significant turning point in my life.